When we look in a mirror what are we looking for?
So where did the ache in my right hip come from? It appeared on Tuesday morning when I awoke. It wasn't there when I went to bed but it was when I awoke. It disappeared on Wednesday or so I thought but then there was a pain in my left shoulder. Thursday left shoulder fine but pain back in the right hip.
I am just curious how my body seems to have a life separate from mine. My life is like the film projected on the screen, the projector is my body and what comes from it is my life. I don’t think I would be so conscious of my appearance if my body was a projector which causes me to wonder why I even look in a mirror? What am I looking for in the mirror? Perhaps the same as Snow White step mum,
“Mirror, mirror on the wall who is the fairest of them all?”
The difference between my life and the film is I get to decide how I act. Sure the sets are created but how I perform is up to me.
If my body isn't me, what about the feelings I am sensitive to? I can feel them like I do my aches but also like the aches I am not always sure of where they came from. Right now some of these feelings are telling me they are not happy with someone not keeping to an agreement, how others lack consideration. I think I do best to hear them and give some time to how we may resolve the issues. But they may never resolve so I have to ensure that I don't let the feelings dictate the agenda.
So what about thoughts? Well if the body isn't me, nor is feelings neither is thinking. They are like feelings they tell me something, they try to offer explanations for the feelings. Often they come first come from the negative so having heard them I wait to see if there is a positive side. There is usually another way to see it although the feelings don’t always go with it which causes an inner conflict.
But hey if I am not any of these things I can get on with deciding how to live within the scenes they create.
PS this week’s Falling into silence below