My brain and I
Tuesday, May 13th, 2025
08:12
It is 13 degrees Celsius this morning. Beautiful morning, warm and sunny, and the birds are tweeting.
I am just about to take my car to the garage for the annual Ministry of Transport (MOT) inspection to ensure it is roadworthy. Changes to my routine create something within. I think it's a bit of anxiety. My brain loves routine and does not like going outside of it. There are some things it is ok with, which makes me curious why I feel anxious about some things but not others.
00:00
I have chosen 00:00, as I was so tired yesterday that what was intended to be ‘a little rest’ became a sleep.
I am struggling with a task I have to complete with a deadline looming. You know how you see the distance from where you are and where you need to be by Thursday.
Too many tasks disconcert me somewhat. When I returned to pick up my car, they told me it was well I booked it in, as the front tyres needed replacing immediately. The mechanic was so shocked that he went looking for the tyres. I am not sure how I missed my usual over-caution checks. And I have to go back in three weeks to get brake pads changed.
The handyman was later than expected, and before his arrival, my brain was thinking that too much had already happened in the day. It went into that cycle that says it can’t be in the same place as the job is being done. I am sure others get this.
I do what I find myself doing in these moments, assuring my brain that we will be ok. And as is almost often the case, the job was done, and we were ok. Well, actually, my brain didn't like the idea that we couldn't have a bath for 12 hours as the sealant sealed.
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