Listening to the conversations inside of me
A couple of times today I heard one of my voices (let’s call it Ernie) say, “What is this now?” I am not good with requests late in the day that is going to take time to complete. Anyway, I have enough to do for two people.
But when I hear Ernie I find myself listening for a response. Another voice (Jemina) says, “What is the point of becoming unhealthily stressed by this demand?” And from somewhere else I hear it may not be as significant as Ernie is making it.
I hear it and throw it to the back of my head.
Later I return to it and Charlie (angry voice) has shown up, “They are making demands without previously clearly explaining themselves and now acting as if it was obvious, it wasn’t”. Barbara (who always wants to prove she knows best) begins to scrutinise and drafts a letter in response. Somebody (is it me?) wonders if it is worth Barbara’s effort but when I feel better once it has gone I say, “Babs, good job, irksome, tiresome, but that needed doing.”