I am happy to be here!
I keep checking myself as if there may be something wrong. It is the last Bank Holiday of the summer and for the best part of 20 years, I would normally be on holiday somewhere outside of the UK.
I always like to have a response to that oft asked question, “Have you been away?” or, “You going anywhere?” I was asked today by Steve one of the town regulars when I bumped into him .
So I am checking, “Am I feeling sad, a loss, frustration at not being away?”
To my surprise, I am not. I am wondering in light of me writing about wanting to escape yesterday have I finally become content with where I am right now?
Holidays have acted as an escape for me probably since at least the age of 7. The escape has been away from the familiar, the mundane, desiring the excitement of difference preferably in France. Yet here I am this year happy to be here! I am still wondering what is happening as this, as said, is not normal for me.
The truth is and I know it is that even when you escape you still face difficulties there. A change of place can bring tranquil moments as we experience things, like a child, for the first time.
But what if it is possible to be content right here within ourselves surely when that happens we have come home.
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