How was your day? Let me tell ya.

Gordie Jackson
3 min readJul 21, 2017

--

Ciara takes the driving seat

A couple of weeks in and Ciara now drives to school. The thing is when I say “Stop” or “Wait” sometimes she does and sometimes she doesn’t. I have had to have it out with her, “If you are driving my car with me supervising I am boss. If I say stop you stop.”

This morning I thought we were going to take a wall with us. Did she stop? No. Did she take the wall? No. Was I on edge? Yes.

I got another flashing light yesterday telling me I need to replace the left brake light. “Flash off!” I thought. You know these trivial, insignificant things bother me more than they should. My morning mind was thinking I am going to have to sort that plus that, that and that. My “Stop” was influenced by my neurosis over all the ‘thats’ I had to do.

She parks up, I take over and in ‘I am not happy mood’ I drive on until I find a garage. They sort the light though point out two of my tyres need replacing, ok maybe it will save me from a future inconvenience. I happen to look at my phone and it is a text “ I have no money” . “So what do you want me to ?” I reply in my head.

I am now at that moment where I have to decide, do I let her sort it or do I swoop in and save the day?

“I was suppose to be at a meeting but maybe that has sorted itself out,” I was thinking. Is this what it is like for God? We ask and we expect but does God always swoop in and save the day? I contemplated and decided the answer would come if I asked two questions, “Do I have the power to help?” And “do I have the time to do this?” To my surprise I answered yes to both.

I drove to the school couldn’t get access so I had to walk, more of my time! Then it came to me, “You only have to shift your thinking. You can chose to just do it and forget the negative energy.” To my surprise I did. I did think what’s the point of feeling negative and decided there wasn’t one.

I eventually arrived where I should have been an hour and a half earlier. They hadn’t missed me. There were a number of things requiring my attention and once complete I was off to Huntingdon where I left my computer charger. Yes I am very keen to get it back. Not having it has shown how important medium has become part of my everyday. I am prepared to drive 120 miles just to get that charger and access this matrix style world.

I leave with enough time to get there but at almost each stage there is a traffic queue. I fought with the Sat Nav until I submitted and then blamed it for putting me and 50 others behind a tractor. I tell you, me attempting to get there for 5 o’clock competed well with any ‘Race against the clock’ film scene. My charger was the Holy Grail that my inner Arthur wanted at all costs. Not today because I was seven minutes late and no one was there.

Again I am faced with the challenge of changing my thinking and to my surprise I am not disappointed, I am seeking an alternative positive outcome. I found a hotel, ordered some food and rested up before returning home.

Was this my assignment for the day? No, it was one of many.

Sorry, I was asking you and here’s me talking about me again.

g.

--

--

Gordie Jackson
Gordie Jackson

Written by Gordie Jackson

Speaks with a Northern Irish accent, lives in Hertfordshire, England.

Responses (2)